urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface i might write something i might want to say to you someday ashley 2009-11-09T01:32:08Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:228589 2009-11-09T01:01:55Z 2009-11-09T01:32:08Z change of heart. i wish i had complete control over my emotions<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i love jackie. she and i have the same definition of what a friend is<br />we're a match made in heaven.<br /><br /><br /><br />i had the worst day at work today. i cried for an hour because they overload and stress me out and don't teach me how to do things properly so when it comes time to be alone i'm totally lost.<br /><br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br />Have you ever had anything done to your teeth? Braces? Gotten a tooth pulled?<br />14 regular teeth pulled, braces and all four wisdoms taken out<br /><br />What kind of cellphone do you have?<br />blackjack2<br /><br />If you're a girl: Pads or tampons?<br />gross<br /><br />Have you ever had a Vanilla Coke?<br />FAVORITE.<br /><br />What do you normally order when you go to Starbucks?<br />i fucking hate starbucks.<br /><br />Do you think there should be a block feature on Facebook for those damn quiz results? (For ALL of them, not just blocking one quiz at a time.)<br />absolutely. i don't care what decade you should have been born in.<br /><br />When is the last time you ate cheesecake?<br />to0o long i love cheesecake<br /><br />Did you ever try that limited editon Diet Chocolate Dr Pepper? Does it sound interesting or nasty?<br />never tried it. i don't like chocolate drinks unless its chocolate milk!<br /><br />Do you know anyone who is diabetic?<br />most of my familys got the sugabeties.<br /><br />What are your top five favorite websites, in order, that you visit daily?<br />facebook, livejournal, textsfromlastnight, fmylife, southparkstudios<br /><br />Are you one of those people who put ranch dressing on damn near everything?<br />h8 ranch<br /><br />--Finish the sentence-- When life gives you lemons, you...<br />eat them because they are delicious<br /><br />What do you think of Perez Hilton?<br />i like him. and i like to make fun of him<br /><br />What color is your room painted?<br />really green<br /><br />What color do you wish it was?<br />i LOVE this color.<br /><br />What breed of dog would you get if you were allowed to get any breed that you wanted, for free?<br />UGH SO HARD! i love mutts but i'd get a golden retriever or a lab or anything i love dogs<br /><br />What is your favorite body wash?<br />dont use that shit<br /><br />Have you ever watched the YouTube video on how hotdogs are made?<br />no and judging on the last person who took this surveys answer i would like to keep not seeing it.<br /><br />Have you ever made a submission to peopleofwalmart.com?<br />no but i love that website<br /><br />What kind of digital camera do you have?<br />nikon coolpix<br /><br />When is the last time you wore the color red?<br />who the f knows<br /><br />Are you superstitious?<br />most of the time<br /><br />What's your favorite type of milk? Whole milk, chocolate milk, skim milk, soy milk, 2%, goat's milk, etc etc.<br />chocolate soy<br /><br />Have you ever donated plasma or donated blood?<br />donated blood to sick little boys<br /><br />Did you do anything for Halloween?<br />hallowmas<br /><br />What is the last piece of jewelry that you wore?<br />ring always little jar necklace thing<br /><br />and another one! this one is LONGGGGG i need to get some friends<br /><br />Do you have a crush or significant other?: <br />biggest crush<br /><br />What's the last song you heard?: <br />sailor song. REGINA&lt;3 <br /><br />Have you hugged anyone in the last 24 hours?: <br />sure<br /><br />When you say you love someone, do you mean it?: <br />mostly.<br /><br />Can you jump rope without falling over?: <br />haha yeah i wish i saw someone fall over while jumping rope!<br /><br />Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?: <br />gotta work<br /><br />What were you doing at 9:56 this morning?: <br />trying to figure out what to do at work<br /><br />Do you still talk to any of your ex's?: <br />rarely<br /><br />Would you ever dress up as a garbage can?: <br />sure<br /><br />Are you home alone or is it a full house?: <br />everyone but bwyan is home. <br /><br />Do you care about the environment?:<br />sure<br /><br />What color are your nails right now?: <br />red<br /><br />Who did you last speak to?: <br />brother <br /><br />Were you alone on your last birthday?: <br />nah<br /><br />Do you have any tattoos at the moment?: <br />naw. <br /><br />Who messaged you last?: <br />eric from work <br /><br />Are you an aunt or an uncle?: <br />no<br /><br />Do you just hate winter?: <br />i love it <br /><br />Who did you last call a hooker?: <br />no idea <br /><br />Do your parents enjoy your company?: <br />doubtful<br /><br />Did anyone brighten up your day today?:<br />there was no brightening up this day.<br /><br />When did you last bake something?:<br />last week.<br /><br />Would you rather have a hookup or a relationship?: <br />i would like for someone to like me. if that results in either of the above i'd be happy. <br /><br />Do you know anyone who is a skank?: <br />hah<br /><br />Did you have any homework today?: <br />havent gone to school in 2 years <br /><br />How are you feeling right now?: <br />stewing.<br /><br />Do you think you're a good significant other?: <br />no<br /><br />Will you be dating anyone in the next two weeks?: <br />nah<br /><br />Can you cut your own hair and it actually come out well?: <br />absolutely not <br /><br />What is your favorite color in the whole wide world?:<br />i like them all.<br /><br />Are there always consequences for your actions?:<br />duh<br /><br />Has your heart ever been broken?: <br />sure<br /><br />Can you commit to one person and one person only?:<br />i'Ve GoT iSsuEz <br /><br />Do you shave often?: <br />hahah not nearly as often as i should<br /><br />Does your History teacher lecture you a lot?:<br />i loved my last history professor. he was the MAN.<br /><br />Have you ever been kicked out of class?:<br />nah i'm not a rebel. i like to learn<br /><br />Would you rather name your son Nathan or Kevin?: <br />no thanks <br /><br />Have you ever regretted getting drunk the next morning?: <br />occasionally.<br /><br />Do you still care for your first love?: <br />no<br /><br />Would you ever consider becoming a police officer?: <br />FUCK DA POLICE<br /><br />Have you ever kissed someone and were totally grossed out?: <br />UGH YES<br /><br />Are you really cold right now or are you warm?:<br />well my dad finally closed up the vents for my ac so im kinda on the warm side for a room with no heat<br /><br />Is it easy for you to get sick?: <br />my immune system is terrible<br /><br />Have you bled from anywhere in the last couple of days?: <br />my hands are all cut up<br /><br />What are you listening to?: <br />MOVIELIFE&lt;3<br /><br />Was your first day of school scary?: <br />uhz<br /><br />Are you in any clubs at school?: <br />no<br /><br />Are hugs or kisses better?:<br />if you're a bad kisser i'd prefer a hug <br /><br />Do you need to tell your parents anything?: <br />nah they dont listen to me anyway<br /><br />Would you ever date your best friend?: <br />haha fuck that i have no male best friend so no.<br /><br />What is the last beverage you consumed?: <br />lemonade<br /><br />Thongs or Hipsters?: <br />i had no idea "hipster" was a kind of underwear. i thought it was a terrible kind of person that resides in brooklyn and wears fake lens glasses? <br /><br />Do you enjoy donuts?: <br />no thanx<br /><br />Have you ever done any crazy drugs?:<br />i should<br /><br />Have you ever dated a 'Tom' or 'Garret'?: <br />i doubt there are any garrets on long island.<br /><br />Are you easily scared by scary movies?: <br />YES.<br /><br />Was today a great day?: <br />one of the worst days of this year<br /><br />Is there something bothering you right now?:<br />YEP.<br /><br />Are gonna have a baby by the time you're 18?: <br />so much older than that already.<br /><br />What's your name?: assley<br /><br />****<br /><br /><br /><br />If an ex said they wanted you back, what would you say?: <br />no<br /><br />Do you have an alarm clock to wake you up?:<br />so necessary<br /><br />Is beer good or nasty to you?: <br />i love beer<br /><br />What would you do if someone told you your mom was dead?: <br />immediately start freaking out/crying. normal reaction i'd say?<br /><br />Name something you can't stand:: <br />most people/places/things<br /><br />Are you not looking forward to anything coming up?: <br />home for the holidays. the bouncing souls are my one love.<br /><br />Do you have a boo boo on you right now?: <br />on my widdle finga<br /><br />Are you expecting a phone call?: <br />nOPE.<br /><br />Would you ever get your septum pierced?: <br />yeah<br /><br />Would you do anything for the last person you talked to?: <br />my brother? of course. he's my best friend in the entire worldz <br /><br />Can you walk in a straight line when you're sober?: <br />no hah<br /><br />Were you pissed off when you woke up today?: <br />incredibly. it was 6 am.<br /><br />Have you ever been caught staring at someone?: <br />hah yes<br /><br />In the past three days, have you hungout with the opposite sex?:<br />yeah and i hate them all.<br /><br />What's your plan for the next week?: <br />nOtHiN<br /><br />Would you rather beat someone up or have your enemy die?: <br />beat someone up, obvz. i gotta get this anger out somehowz <br /><br />Have you done something dumb today?: <br />yea<br /><br />Who introduced you to your most recent ex?:<br />this group of friends is going to be the death of me.<br /><br />Do you still have feelings for your first love?: <br />no<br /><br />Are all of your friends sexually active?: <br />yes <br /><br />Where were you at noon today?: <br />sitting downstairs with my grandma. <br /><br />Who last commented you?: <br />who cares<br /><br />Do you have a song stuck in your head?: <br />ain't no gettin' through to gideon<br /><br />Are you annoying to anyone?: <br />clearly im annoying to everyone.<br /><br />Are you more literal or more symbolic?: <br />literal<br /><br />What was the last thing you drank?: <br />lemonade still.<br /><br />Is bombing for peace really like fucking for virginity?: <br />i hate sayings like this<br /><br />Do you enjoy cuddling?: <br />don't touch me<br /><br />Who was the last person to make you smile?: <br />brother<br /><br />Should you be doing anything besides this survey right now?:<br />i want to watch waynes world but that would require turning around.<br /><br />Is your best friend single?: <br />i guess.<br /><br />Would your parents be mad if you were pregnant?: <br />hugh would be so irate <br /><br />Have you ever ridden a llama?: <br />NO! i've ridden a camel and an elephant, though.<br /><br />Do you think clowns are secretly rapists?: <br />haha what no they're adorable and make balloon animals and paint faces. no rape!<br /><br />Is your number four top friend important to you?: <br />i have no friends<br /><br />Who is your favorite sibling (if you have any)?: <br />i love them both for very different reasons.<br /><br />How old will you be in 2016?: <br />the worlds gonna end in 2012 anywayz so i'll be dead.<br /><br />Do you currently have or want any tattoos?: <br />want want want <br /><br />Have you ever treated someone like crap and thought it was funny?: <br />yeah but looking back on it now its not funny at all. sorry.<br /><br />Will you be single in the spring?: <br />i'm going to die alone with 30 cats. CAN'T WAIT.<br /><br />Do you have a 'type'?: <br />the type that isn't interested in me at all :)<br /><br />Are you single/taken/crushing right now?: <br />i'll crush you.<br /><br />Have you ever been in an advance placement course?: <br />hah no i never cared enough to try.<br /><br />What season is your birthday in?: <br />spring<br /><br />What's the last movie you watched?: <br />muppets from space<br /><br />Have you ever wanted to be a marine?: <br />no thank you<br /><br />Do you believe that change is always good?: <br />its not always good but its usually necessary<br /><br />Where are the majority of your clothes?: <br />NOT ON THE FLOOR FOR ONCE! yeehaw.<br /><br />Boxers or Briefs?: <br />boxers<br /><br />Have you changed in the last two months?: <br />hah<br /><br />Do you have a bad temper?: <br />yep<br /><br />Have you ever tripped in front of someone hot?: <br />yeah but thats not the worst thing thats ever happened to me in front of someone attractive<br /><br />In the past month, have you cried?: <br />yes<br /><br />Who did you last copy homework from?: <br />f homework <br /><br />Are you obsessed with organization?: <br />so far from this<br /><br />Have you ever disected frogs?: <br />no!<br /><br />Can you honestly say you're a good kid?: <br />i am.<br /><br />Are you complicated?:<br />avRiL&lt;3<br /><br />Is there someone who knows ALL of your secrets?: <br />no<br /><br />Darling, what's your true name?:<br />clarissa darling?<br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:228102 2009-11-07T07:59:38Z 2009-11-07T07:59:38Z please read the letter, robert plant allison krauss i feel like things could work out the way that i want them to and that i could be happy <br />and you're going to ruin it for me. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:227879 2009-11-05T16:57:29Z 2009-11-05T16:57:29Z the specials, little bitch. my week of vacation was fantastical.<br />we picked and carved pumpkins and made apple pie/mummy hotdogs and ghost cheese puff things, watched children of the corn, and did a lot of other things that were non-fall related and then it was melissas birthday! we went to the railhouse and then the next night went to mulchaeys. that is a hard thing to spell. saturday was hallowmas but first we went into the city and tried to find the parade, got soaked while searching, saw a second of it and then went to mcdonalds instead and met the worlds worst old guy. went back uptown, found the new york grand ballroom and had the best time ever. thats what happens when you see world/inferno. its mandatory.<br /><br />i went back to work tuesday and i'm already off today<br />thats kinda sick.<br /><br />i want to ride my bike a few times before it gets too cold and icy<br />and then when it snows i can't wait to make snow angels<br />i love winter.<br /><br /><br /><br />jkfldsjfkldsj<br /><br /><br />HOME FOR THE HOLIDAYS IS FOUR NIGHTS THIS YEAR!<br />i love those soulzzzz.<br />i'm going with my sista and brotha<br />we're only going three nights though because bayside is playing the 28th and bayside sucks.<br />chuck ragan is gonna be there the 29th. i'm so stoked for that.<br /><br /><br />K BYE! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:227678 2009-10-21T03:26:32Z 2009-10-21T03:32:39Z am i food or am i free? tegan and sara's new album is so fantastic<br />i love "someday" i've been listening to it on repeat all day<br /><br />my vacation from work is soon! i really need this shit<br />it probably sounds dumb because its not a "real" job<br />(real meaning a career or whatever)<br />but i invest a lot of time and effort in my job and its tiring and i can't wait to not have to be there for a week<br />and lauras off that whole week, too! and melissas birthday is that week!<br />and so is halloween! and the world/inferno show!<br /><br />good things are coming up<br /><br /><br /><br />i just watched a documentary on mail order brides<br />maybe i should become one? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:227297 2009-10-16T05:50:12Z 2009-10-16T05:50:12Z aw man i miss you. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:226844 2009-10-10T15:12:41Z 2009-10-10T15:12:41Z parents! why won't they shut up? i went to kingston last night to see ben folds with dave and laura<br />it took us 4 1/2 hours to get there because of ridiculous traffic everywhere<br />but we made it EXACTLY on time. <br />like, we gave the dude our tickets, peed, got a beer and he was starting to play<br />perfect timing.<br />the theatre was gorgeous, totally unexpected for the middle of nowhere upstate new york<br />and he was phenomenal<br />i've never been so impressed by one person before<br />when he played "the luckiest" i got all teary eyed<br />so so so so so good<br />and so worth the trek that we made to get there<br /><br />i love being blown out of the water by a performer<br />just one guy with a piano in a gorgeous theatre with great acoustics<br />i can't talk highly enough him/ the show he put on<br />geez. <br /><br /><br /><br />yeah so little else has been going on<br />i'm off today. i want to adventure. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:226565 2009-10-03T19:23:55Z 2009-10-03T22:44:15Z bouncing souls. everything sucks.<br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br />1. Your ‘ex’ and You: friendly<br /><br />2. I am listening to: season one of aquateen<br /><br />3. Maybe I should: do something <br /><br />4. I love: the bouncing souls<br /><br />5. My best friend(s): rule<br /><br />6. I don’t understand: why people act the way they do<br /><br />7. I have lost all respect for: ?<br /><br />8. I last ate: chicken sangwich<br /><br />9. The meaning of my display name is: so long ago<br /><br />10. God: free<br /><br />11. Someday: i'll tell you.<br /><br />12. I will always be: stubborn<br /><br />13. Love seems to: go to everyone but me. <br /><br />14. I never ever want to lose: HOPE I NEVER LOSE MY WALLET! <br /><br />15. My myspace is: dead. <br /><br />17. I get annoyed when: people tell me what to do. or tell me to calm down. <br /><br />18. Parties: have lost their fun<br /><br />20. Simple kisses: i need more of these<br /><br />21. Today I: woke up way too early<br /><br />22. I wish: i had a friend right now.<br /><br /><br /><br />-RANDOM-<br /><br />Q: do you have any siblings? sister and brother<br /><br />Q: do you want children? eventually<br /><br />Q: do you smile often? yes<br /><br />Q: do you untie your shoes every time you take them off? i rarely wear shoes with laces<br /><br />Q: do you like your handwriting? i don't think about it<br /><br />Q: are your toenails painted? there's some black hanging on for dear life<br /><br />Q: are you a friendly person? i'll talk to anyone.<br /><br />Q: who’s bed others than yours do you sleep in? carolines.<br /><br />Q: what color shirt are you wearing? black<br /><br />Q: what were you doing at 9pm yesterday? getting stoned?<br /><br /><br />1. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach? <br />hmph<br /><br />2. What did you dream last night? <br />melanie and i were arguing over what day it was. she was right. she usually is!<br /><br />3. What time is it right now?<br />6:37<br /><br />4. How are you feeling right now? <br />BORED.<br /><br />5. Who was the last person you hugged? <br />bobbby&lt;3 i love that man <br /><br />6. There is none? <br />none more black.<br /><br />7. Do you like someone right now? <br />jfkldsjfkldsjfkldsjkfljdsifu ewiofjdsklfjdsklfjsd fjlfjdsklfjdskljfisohfdjsfdksjfdsk<br /><br />8. Cocaine? <br />only if its the eric clapton song.<br /><br />9. What's your favorite number? <br />666<br /><br />10. Who was the last person to make you laugh? <br />master shake<br /><br />11. Did you swim more than once last summer? <br />didn't swim at all.<br /><br />12. When was the last time you ate a chicken sandwich? <br />today!<br /><br />13. What is one thing you miss about your past? <br />you know, i miss it all. <br /><br />14. What are you thinking about RIGHT NOW? <br />i should wash this mask off my face. its starting to get crackly and it kinda hurts?<br /><br />15. Are you jealous of anybody? <br />never<br /><br />16. Is anyone jealous of you? <br />i doubt this so hard<br /><br />17. Has a friend ever been mean to you? <br />haha i'm a doormat<br /><br />18. Where was the last place you were at besides your house? <br />stop and shop<br /><br />20. What are you looking forward to? <br />world/inferno. krystina coming home. i miss her beautiful face.<br /><br />21. What should you be doing? <br />nothing<br /><br />24. How many things in your past do you regret? <br />one or two<br /><br />26. Have you ever kissed two people in one night? <br />yes<br /><br />27. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? <br />melissa<br /><br />28. Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't have them? <br />daily<br /><br />29. If you could change anything about your past, what would you change? <br />i'd cut the shitty friends out right at the very beginning, i wouldn't let people treat me bad, i'd be more open with my feelings because they've persisted for 8 years. can't do anything about that now, though.<br /><br />30. Did you ever see Cry-Baby with Johnny Depp? <br />naw<br /><br />31. Do you like your life? <br />most of the time<br /><br />33. Do you forgive easily? <br />yeah i always say i'm going to be mad forever but as long as someone apologizes to me i forgive them almost immediately<br /><br />34. Have you picked up any phrases or sayings from a person? <br />yes<br /><br />35. Do you get along with girls or guys better? <br />equal<br /><br />39. When I say Care Bears, what do you think of? <br />this brown one that i had<br /><br />40. What are some of your biggest fears in your life? <br />not accomplishing anything<br /><br />41. Have you ever cried the whole day? <br />i've cried most of today.<br /><br />44. What song are you listening to right now? <br />meatwad frylock and master shake just found the mummy in their basement. "the raccoon is american, obviously."<br /><br />45. Who do you look like in your family? <br />my sissy<br /><br />46. If you were to tell someone anything what would it be?<br />i miss you.<br /><br />49. Do you miss someone? <br />haHAAA<br /><br />50. Ever got your heart broken, if so by who? <br />ehhh<br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:226306 2009-10-01T23:38:13Z 2009-10-01T23:38:13Z forever and always LAURA GOT ENGAGED! i'm so happy for my best friend! her and cory are so precious and happy and i love them both so freaking much. i can't wait til the wedding:)<br /><br /><br /><br />i got my dress for hallowmas. melissa and i have searched for a couple days and we went to this place in port washington today and we both scored sick dresses and because old ladies love us we got them for 20 bones each. i'm so excited for halloween, jeez!<br /><br />also, my credit card number was stolen the other day. that sucked. but after talking to various people in india i got the problem resolved and canceled that card altogether because i trust no one.<br /><br /><br />i'm going to the railhouse soon. i'm getting bored with it and hardly ever have fun there anymore but maybe tonight will be different. i doubt it. my heart hurts. i'm going to bring my ipod with me tonight so that when i walk home later i can cry with taylor.<br /><br /><br /><br /><b>it rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone.</b> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:226212 2009-09-23T04:37:46Z 2009-09-23T04:37:46Z the only eye doctor in south park is really really mean i don't know what to do.<br />i don't know if i should keep this to myself or say something<br />i wish you'd say something first.<br /><br /><br />dangggg<br /><br /><br />i moved back home, but i haven't slept in my room yet<br />i miss my bed but i haven't had time to put everything back in its proper place<br /><br /><br />i'm lazy and bored with life<br />i want to go on an adventure soon. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:225898 2009-09-08T06:07:46Z 2009-09-08T06:07:46Z everything surrounding the ship is gray or dark blue and nothing is particularly hip, and once or maybe twice a day this thin strip of white appears at the horizon line but it's so far in the distance you can't be sure whether it's land or more sky. it's impossible to believe that any kind of life sustains itself beneath this flat, slate-gray sky or in an ocean so calm and vast, that anything breathing could exist in such limbo, and any movement that occurs below the surface is so faint it's like some kind of small accident, a tiny indifferent moment, a minor incident that shouldn't have happened, and in the sky there's never any trace of sun - the air seems vaguely transparent and disposable, with the texture of kleenex - yet it's always bright in a dull way, the wind usually constant as we drift through it, weightless, and below us the trail the ship leaves is a jacuzzi blue that fades within minutes into the same boring gray sheet that blankets everything else surrounding the ship. one day a normal-looking rainbow appears and you vaguely notice it, thinking about the enormous sums of money the kiss reunion tour made over the summer, or maybe a whale swims along the starboard side, waving its fin, showing off. it's easy to feel safe, for people to look at you and think someone's going somewhere. surrounded by so much boring space, five days is a long time to stay unimpressed. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:225713 2009-09-06T22:52:23Z 2009-09-06T22:52:23Z loose lips. it's strange how when life seems really shitty something completely unexpected happens and it forces you to put shit in perspective. my life has been in shambles but its not the end of the world. things are going to get better, shit will work its self out, and life will go on. i wish that everyone could have that attitude, or at least be able to talk to someone if they don't. i feel like i need to go out and tell everyone i know how much i love them and how they can always talk to me about anything thats bothering them ever.<br /><br />we all lost a friend friday. one of the best people i've ever had the pleasure of knowing.<br />life is too hard sometimes.<br />rest in peace. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:225293 2009-08-30T06:04:33Z 2009-08-30T06:04:33Z apartment 5f i just wanna be happy with the way things are<br />i just wanna look up at the sky at night and appreciate the stars. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:225137 2009-08-26T04:36:52Z 2009-08-26T04:36:52Z i'll leave when i wanna. man oh man! i just home from blink182 and i had the best time i've had all summer.<br />i've been waiting for it and they did not disappoint<br />things are weird between them and you can tell but they were still great<br />i love them so much.<br /><br />there's seriously nothing like seeing your all-time-life-changing-favorite band play a show<br />aw man i had so much fun. i'm so lame.<br /><br /><br />tomorrow is my first day off in 14 days. fuckin' a i've waited a long time for this<br />and i'm driving with my sister up to binghamton. we'll probably fight but it'll be a fun adventure nonetheless. <br /><br /><br />night lj i luv u. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:224844 2009-08-21T05:10:04Z 2009-08-21T05:10:04Z lamar vannoy is stuck in my head i just got home from the bouncing souls show. i will never love another thing as much as i love them.<br /><br /><br />thats all i really wanted to say. <br /><br /><br />i smell like other peoples sweat and my toe is bleeding all over the place and i couldn't be happier. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:224516 2009-08-19T21:01:03Z 2009-08-19T21:01:03Z i'm updating from my phone right now while at work. i clearly have nothing better to do when here. <br /><br />i think i'm moving back home which kinda sucks because i just moved out last month but its also kinda cool because i will not be wasting 500 dollars a month to live 5 blocks away from my momz and dadz.<br /><br />ive been sad the last few weeks and ive just been bawling for no apparent reason over dumb shit. i have little justification for feeling this way because life has been okay lately but i dunno...somethings missing. i wish i knew what it was. <br /><br />joes leaving for tour tomorrow so ive got the place all to myself. im going to make grilled cheese sandwiches in my underwear and also tomorrow is the souls/lifetime/none more black show at webster hall. i cant wait to drink cheap beer with my brother and see the one band that'll never fail to make me happy.<br /><br />i have nothing to say. im so damn borrrred i wish i could watch youtube or listen to pandora from my phone! i guess i should go like...help customers or some shit. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:224289 2009-08-11T05:15:58Z 2009-08-11T05:15:58Z before you were punk <a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br />Are you someone's best friend?<br />yes<br /><br />How long until your next birthday?<br />9 months?<br /><br />What color is your shirt?<br />black<br /><br />Do you hate being alone?<br />i enjoy it<br /><br />What's your favorite season of the year?<br />fall rules the hardest but i like them all.<br /><br />Do you miss anyone?<br />i suppose<br /><br />Are you wearing jeans right now?<br />its way too hot in here for jeans.<br /><br />Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?<br />my brother.<br /><br />Day been rough?<br />not really, no.<br /><br />How often do you straighten your hair?<br />every day<br /><br />Last people besides family that went into your house?<br />melissa frank chris burke<br /><br />Ever dated two people at once?<br />no i can't even get one person to date me. two would be ridic<br /><br />Are you happy?<br />sure!<br /><br />Do you sleep with your door open or closed?<br />closed aaf<br /><br />Does seeing couples in love make you mad?<br />i hate love.<br /><br />Is there someone that ALWAYS makes you happy whenever you see or talk?<br />yes<br /><br />Have you ever slow danced with someone?<br />at least once a week<br /><br />Do you make eye contact when you talk to people?<br />yes<br /><br />Do you wear make up?<br />typical make up. nothing crazy. <br /><br />How much longer until you get what you want more than anything?<br />forever i'm sure.<br /><br />Is the last person you hugged older than you?<br />yes i hugged bob today<br /><br />What was the last song you sang along to?<br />BEYONCE! single ladiezzzz<br /><br />Have you ever cried from being so mad?<br />yes<br /><br />Is anyone else in the room with you?<br />just elvis and bob and brandon <br /><br />What is your favorite drink?<br />i love dr pepper<br /><br />What were you doing at 8:00 am?<br />being woken up by chris/frank.<br /><br />How do you feel about your hair right now?<br />its gross because its 100 degrees in here and no ones around so who gives a fucccck!<br /><br />Do you have any siblings?<br />sister and brother<br /><br />Do you get distracted easily?<br />yes<br /><br />Do you ever keep arguing when you know you're wrong?<br />yeah i'm stubborn. i'm trying to work on it<br /><br />What are you wearing right now?<br />black shorts black shirt<br /><br />Has anyone said they love you in the last week?<br />yea<br /><br />Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?<br />not really. if you've got something to say then they're ok<br /><br />Do you get along more with girls or guys?<br />both<br /><br />Do you like taking walks?<br />love it<br /><br />Is there a meaning behind your myspace song?<br />on the might rulez<br /><br />When is the last time you saw number one on your top friends?<br />less than an hour ago<br /><br />Do you have an older brother?<br />younger<br /><br />Have you argued with anyone today?<br />of course.<br /><br />Are you shy or outgoing?<br />outgoing<br /><br />How did you get your last bruise?<br />i ran into a drawer handle today at work. shit hurt<br /><br />Is there someone who you instantly smile when you receive a message from?<br />sure<br /><br />Will this weekend be a good one?<br />i guess<br /><br />Where is your biological father right now?<br />i'm sure he's asleep. i miss him :-\<br /><br />Is your room clean?<br />never<br /><br />How many tattoos do you want to get?<br />76. all of butterflies sporadically placed on my back<br /><br />What is the latest you've stayed up in the past week?<br />545. couldnt sleep.<br /><br />Do you like being around a large group of friends, or a best friend?<br />i'll take either. i have more fun with melissa but i like other people sometimes too.<br /><br />Where’s your phone right now?<br />i guess its in my bag <br /><br />Who was your last missed call from?<br />eric<br /><br />Have you ever seen your best friend(s) cry?<br />yes.<br /><br />Who was the last person you cried in front of and when?<br />i cried to myself like 2 days ago<br /><br />What should you be doing right now?<br />sleeping i guess<br /><br />Do you believe what goes around comes around?<br />absolutely<br /><br />Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your bed?<br />futon <br /><br />How many push-ups can you do?<br />5 tops<br /><br />What do you think about girls who smoke cigarettes?<br />nothing?<br /><br />Are you drunk?<br />on thursdays<br /><br />What are you craving?<br />air conditioning <br /><br />Gay marriage?<br />100% for.<br /><br />Your last text says?<br />"it's cool"<br /><br /><br /><br />it was so hot out today. like 90 degrees. i want to move to alaska<br />i hate the heat and i hate how its 1000 degrees in my room because there is no circulation<br />sleeping is going to suck tonight<br />whateverrrr<br /><br />the bouncing souls are soon. i can't wait.<br />i didn't have anything to say i just wanted to take that survey hah urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:224034 2009-08-05T02:40:05Z 2009-08-05T02:40:05Z things have been so good. i love living on my own. it's so much fun.<br />i miss my family but i've been trying to visit them when i can so it's not too bad<br /><br /><br />i've been partying a lot and its been awesome but my body hates me for it<br />melissa joe chris frank and i made pot brownies the other day<br />another thing my body HATES me for<br />we were all dead yesterday and i still feel kinda terrible today<br />i'm never making special brownies again<br />i'll stick to the regular varieties. <br /><br /><br /><br />i want to see funny people. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:223784 2009-07-27T21:17:34Z 2009-07-27T21:17:34Z HAYYY!<br /><br />i've moved into my apartment with joe. currently i am pirating the internet from someone in the area. maybe from the man downstairs? i dunno but its working and that makes me happy. its so hot in this place. f not having an a.c. they are so necessary to life. i like it here a lot, though. its been real good so far.<br /><br /><br />i've been a busy lady so far but i don't know what it is exactly that i've been busy with.<br />thursday is going to rule so hard because melissa sarah and i are all off from work<br />i wanna go to the arboretum and climb trees and maybe smoke a few bowls?<br />that'd be ill but i'm down to do anything they want to do. i just can't wait to be off.<br /><br /><br /><img src="http://img16.imageshack.us/img16/8896/photo49g.jpg" /><br /><br />this is me in my new gray room! i love it.<br />and<br /><img src="http://img508.imageshack.us/img508/2406/photo39.jpg" /><br />i miss my brother:( urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:223655 2009-07-13T23:38:56Z 2009-07-14T06:36:47Z hey! you! get off of my cloud! thursdays will always be my favorite day of the week<br /><br />last thurz at the railhouse we danced the whole night to the yeah yeah yeah's and other good tunes<br />yesterday sarah and i had a perfect sunday funday which included ihop, watching the birdcage while smoking/drinking cocktails, bbqing steak and corn, getting ice cream with laura, smoking more and then watching bridezillas and then melissa came! it was such a good day.<br /><br /><br />we've been slowly moving into our new apartment.<br /><br />currently we have a futon in the living room, joe has got a mattress in his room and i've got pots, pans, knives, canisters, a shot glass, a funnel cake maker and 10 cans of paint in mine. i'm really excited about this. i think we're going to have a really good time at 611 madison street.<br /><br /><br />i want to go for a bike ride! and i want to see the rolling stones or a rolling stones cover band<br />i love them so much. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:223339 2009-07-01T15:58:41Z 2009-07-01T18:35:38Z sex sells and (unfortunately) i'm buying. last night i went to the post office with my two favorite sisters (jackee + christine!) and kara. we drank fish bowls and got low and had a very good time, though i've never seen so many broz and dumb bitches in one central location before.<br /><br /><br />i just had a realization... which is why i'm updating.<br />(i always update when i have them)<br /><br />i've been wasting my time on someone that is completely different from me. i used to think we had so much in common and the more i think about it the more i realize that i've been making these dumb connections in my head that were never really there in the first place. i'm a weird person, and he tries way too hard to be just like everyone else and thats the one general trait that i don't like about people. i'm also not even sure that i can talk to this person anymore. he's got nothing to say. maybe this will all change, maybe i'm just starting to come to terms with the kind of person that i am and the kind of people that will make me happy. i think the one thing that i know for sure is that i don't know nothin.<br /><br /><br /><br />nice op ivy quote, eh?<br />i'm happier now that i've started thinking about the friends in my life and i'm super happy because i'm cuttin' some people out that shouldn't have been there in the first place. LATA. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:223033 2009-06-28T17:37:21Z 2009-06-28T17:37:21Z i love hot water music. i feel like its time for karma to come around and do something good for me.<br /><br /><br />thursday was railhouse (obvs) which included a lot of mj/mj dance parties, friday was smoking ourselves stupid and watching bridezillas on demand for 3 hours and yesterday was a great day!<br /><br />sarah and i went and got chipotle and then we started baking a rainbow cake and it came out pretty but then we killed it and peter saved the day by icing it and adding a shit ton of sprinkles to it. "this cake is literally held together by spit and prayers" we then went to melissa's house for her graduation fiesta! congratulations baby! we got drunk and ate margaritas delicious food and danced the night away and all the best people came and then anthony drove me laura eric jack and whoev home at 3 this morning. i'm so glad i have work at 4 today. i would have died if i had to go in any earlier.<br /><br />i think i'm going to get chipotle again. i am addicted. <br />i'm moving soon! apparently we have a couch. life is getting better. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:222884 2009-06-24T17:45:22Z 2009-06-24T17:45:22Z the crane takes flight <a name="cutid1"></a><br />first best friend: ally ozone park neighbor<br />first car: green van<br />first kiss: anthony<br />first breakup: anthony.<br />first screen name: horsie#### i don't remember the numbers.<br />first self purchased album: alanis morrisette<br />first funeral: uncle tommy<br />first pet: cat<br />first piercing/tattoo: earz.<br />first credit card: capital one life ruiner<br />first crush: ryan<br />first enemy: dumb bitch<br />first big trip: florida<br />first music you remember hearing in your house: oldies, jackson browne, billy joel<br /><br />last cigarette: thursday.<br />last car ride: last night<br />last kiss: too long.<br />last good cry: last week<br />last library book check out: visions of cody i think<br />last movie seen: aquateen hunger force movie<br />last beverage drank: chocolate soy milk<br />last food consumed: funyuns<br />last crush: i have no heart<br />last phone call: mel's butt just called me<br />last time showered: hour ago<br />last shoes worn: brown sandals <br />last cd played: gaslight anthem. they're so fucking good<br />last item bought: funyuns!<br />last annoyance: twisted individuals trying to make me feel like shit.<br />last disappointment: hah<br />last time wanting to die: oh my god friday. hangover from HELL.<br />last time scolded: just finished screaming with my mom. typical.<br />last shirt worn: misfits fiend club<br /><br />and another!<br /><br />-INFORMATION-<br />name: ashley<br />age: 22<br />single or taken: single.<br />sex: girl<br />birthday: 5.20.<br />sign: taurus.<br />siblings: caroline&bryan<br />hair color: black<br />eye color: blue<br />height: five feet<br /><br />-RELATIONSHIPS-<br />who are your best friends? melissa laura sarah krystina<br />you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? i'm bitter, sorry.<br /><br />-FASHION STUFF-<br />where is your favorite place to shop: forevaeva<br />any tattoos or piercings?: nose lip ears want tattoo real real bad<br /><br />-SPECIFICS-<br />do you do drugs: i used to do drugs. i still do but i used to, too.<br />what kind of shampoo do you use: currently dove<br />what are you most scared of: nothing<br />what are you listening to right now: ted leo/rx<br />who is the last person that called you: melanieeee<br />where do you want to get married: in hell<br />how many buddies are online right now: dont know, don't care,<br />what would you change about yourself: some days nothing, most days everything.<br /><br />-FAVORITES-<br />color: black.<br />food: burritos <br />boys names: jackson<br />girls name: emma<br />subjects in school: english<br />animals: horses dogs CATS elephants<br />person: master shake<br /><br />-HAVE YOU EVER-<br />given anyone a bath: maybe a child? i doubt that, though<br />smoked: yeah<br />given anyone head: these things happen<br />bungee jumped: i would never<br />made out with someone: duh<br />made yourself throw up: yes<br />skinny dipped: no<br />ever been in love? no<br />made yourself cry to get out of trouble: yes<br />pictured your crush naked: no<br />actually seen your crush naked: crushz<br />cried when someone died: of course<br />lied: yes<br />fallen for your best friend: egads<br />been rejected: obviously. i'm gross<br />rejected someone: once or twice. they usually have no teeth/a mental problem so its not like i'm bragging about that or anything. long list of winners.<br />used someone: no<br />done something you regret: it happens<br /><br />-CURRENT-<br />clothes: misfits shirt pj pantz<br />music: still ted leo<br />makeup: none yet<br />annoyance: life<br />smell: pineapple mango candle laura got me. she's fantastic.<br />desktop picture: zebra&lt;3<br />book your reading: run with the hunted <br />cd in player: sink or swim<br />dvd in player: athf movie.<br /><br />-LAST PERSON-<br />you touched: dont know.<br />hugged: shawn? dunno.<br />imed: melissa<br />you yelled at: my mom.<br />you kissed: frank i guess.<br /><br />-ARE YOU-<br />understanding? yeah<br />open-minded? yes<br />arrogant: nah, i dont think so.<br />insecure: yes<br />random: at times.<br />hungry: always.<br />smart: with certain things.<br />moody: try hard not to be<br />hard working: when there is something to be done<br />organized: no<br />healthy: not at all.<br />shy: no<br />difficult: incredibly.<br />attractive: if you like ugly girls.<br />bored easily: no<br />responsible: taking small steps towards being more of this.<br />obsessed: only with the souls<br />angry: such a hateful little girl<br />sad: when appropriate<br />happy: most of the time<br />hyper: too tired for that<br />trusting: not too much, no<br /><br />-WHO DO YOU WANNA..-<br />kill: spedi. seriously get off of this planet. they're so awful.<br />slap: sister<br />get really wasted with: friends<br />get high with: melissa. shes clearly the favorite.<br />talk to offline: anyone<br />talk to online: never really chat on aim<br />sex it up with: hah<br /><br />-RANDOM-<br />in the morning i am: dead<br />all you need is: chipotle.<br />love is: not real<br />i dream about: nightmares.<br />sexual preference: manz.<br />what do you notice first in the sex you're into: i dunnoo<br /><br />-WHICH IS BETTER-<br />coke or pepsi: coke<br />flowers or candy: neither<br />tall or short: tall<br /><br />-WHO-<br />makes you laugh the most: master shake<br />makes you smile: meatwad<br />gives you a funny feeling when you se him/her: carl bratonanonaluski<br /><br />-DO YOU EVER-<br />sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to sign on: god no.<br />save conversations: not anymore.<br />wish you were younger: eh you learn<br />cry because someone said something to you: rare occasion<br /><br />-NUMBER-<br />of times i have had my heart broken: maybe 1. most likely 0. <br />of hearts i have broken: 0<br />guys i've kissed: 40 +<br />girls i've kissed: a few.<br />cds i own: like 400<br />of scars on my body: a few<br />of things i regret: meh.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />thursday night was our typical routine. christina came and got me and melissa and then laura and we all went to the twisted shamrock where eric was and a girl that called me a cunt and dave and his girlfriend and maybe like 4 other decent people. that place is really starting to suck more and more. i'd almost rather pay for beers at a bar where only legal people are allowed. whatev. went to the railhouse after and it was a lot more fun because we're all friends there and it's like our own little version of cheers. we listened to alanis and tom petty and it was a good time. i walked home at 230 with no shoes on in the rainymisty nasty weather<br /><br />the next day i died at work and threw up in the garbage because i am super classy and then i had to go get a kidney sonogram and i threw up in the doctors office too and then i went home and slept for 289 hours and woke up feeling fantastic. i don't know what the hell was wrong with me. i think my medicine reacted badly to all the beer in my tummy causing me to feel completely terrible. all that pain was self inflicted.<br /><br />saturday i went to brooklyn with sarah and peter and we played 7 11 or doubles and were mean people regarding a certain beast that was there with us.<br /><br />i'm moving out of my house and i can't wait. looked at the apartment with joseph and my room is really big and it's going to be good. i have little else to say. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:222499 2009-06-17T16:31:02Z 2009-06-17T16:31:02Z i ain't got nobody - woody guthrie<3 have you ever gotten into an argument with someone and then suddenly realized where you're going wrong in life?<br />that just happened to me.<br /><br />i'm so stubborn, but i can't help it. and in this particular situation i think my stubbornness is warranted but it got me to thinking and i think that i need a life overhaul. no one wants to be around someone who is negative and mean all the time and i was never the negative mean person until fairly recent. i'm going to try my hardest to be more like able. i feel like whenever i'm around people just want me to go away so maybe if i'm nicer people will wanna hang and i can be happy again.<br /><br /><br />i don't know. <br /><br />i thought i lost the blink182 tickets today and i legitimately had a mild heart attack while tearing my house apart for them<br />my dad put them somewhere high up and i was unaware that the shelf he had them on even existed<br />its a relief to know where they are now, though.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />day one of being positive... here we go! alright! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:222235 2009-06-16T05:29:10Z 2009-06-16T05:43:53Z tegan and sara- monday monday monday monday monday monday!<br /><br /><br />i'm home from ohio. i had a really good time getting drunk and exploring/climbing all over the city with laura but ohio is not a place that i think i'll be returning to. it's anarchy all the time and there are a thousand bugs and they park their cars in the right lane which absolutely blows my mind. land of the free aaf. the rock and roll hall of fame was totez worth the 8 hour drive because it is an awesome place and right now the entire 6th floor is dedicated to the boss! i love bruce springsteen, he's the man. i bought a bunch of weird cd's and i can't stop listening to woody guthrie. lake eerie rules pretty hard, too.<br /><br />got home yesterday after an awful trip home where we got into a fight with some lunatic woman in the dairy queen of lamar pennsylvania: population 5 and then got into a driving fight with an 18 wheeler who tried to run us off the road. fuck pa. <br /><br />i had a serious nightmare last night and when i woke up from it i was standing in the hallway outside my room screaming and my brother and sister were both just looking at me like i was a complete psycho. i guess i kind of am.<br /><br />and then today i made my mom leave work early because i was in extreme pain and thought that kidney stones had returned for a second time to destroy my life. we went to the hospital but then it didn't hurt as bad so instead i just went to some weird clinic in north babylon and got drugs to fix my infectious body. then i got burritos and the new rancid cd. i love rancid. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:myfist_yourface:222002 2009-06-09T01:20:16Z 2009-06-09T01:20:16Z YOUTH! CREW! DEAR LORD!<br /><br />i just found this old blurty journal that i had from 2003-2004 and i am peeing myself reading the entries<br />here are a few gems that made me lol:<br />"corinne, this is ya motha"<br />" i want to stab him with a screwdriver in his english knees....then steal his calculator" (a quote from eric demarco himself)<br />"ugh i hate mixed signals more than grape lollipops"<br />"IM ON THE MOON MRS. REYNOLDS, LOOK! IM ON THE MOON!" - sean on a moon bounce<br />"vinny threatened my life with donuts, stupid tall."<br />"went to daniel to meet jenn and susan (jenns little satan..I MEAN SISTER!) "<br />"i know i can..eat what i wanna eat..and if i want something good i can eat yo mommas feet."<br /><br />and there's also all these ridiculous entries about me being in loveeee and how i thought this boy liked me back<br />and this was one of my examples as to why i thought he loved me back:<br />him: im definatly going to salvation army with u<br />so xlastx summer: ok!<br />him: and u cant tell me different<br />so xlastx summer: i wont.<br />so xlastx summer: ..weirdo.<br />him: :-D<br />i clearly have the worst female intuition ever and it has been present in me for a very long time.<br /><br /><br /><br />i was a funny fucking 15/16 year old. or maybe 16/17? i can't do math.<br />and this entry is most likely only funny to me but i don't give a care.